How does it feel to leave everything behind? Crazy thoughts from the airplane
This article is written on the airplane from Budapest to Kathmandu when I started my round the world trip.
I don’t even think I have fully realised what I am doing until now! I mean, I was planning this for so long but because of all the preparation of getting my kit sorted and setting up this web page, I hadn’t really had a minute to sit down and think, “Yes, I am doing this, and it will be f@cking awesome”.
Goodbye’s are always hard, and I had to do it twice!… Once in England (as I have lived there for 10 years) and then again with my family in Hungary.
One month prior to my travels I had left my job in London and 10 years of my life there. When I stepped out of my old house without the need for the house keys, I couldn’t help but feel that I did not belong to anywhere any more. I handed back my Hungarian family home keys 10 years ago and I knew I can go back any time but still I had no house keys, so no home!
Leaving the job did not feel that bad as I knew I wanted a change anyway. I keep in touch with my colleagues on FB though. The only weird feeling is that for first time in my life I have chosen to be unemployed and free! I was such a hard worker for all my life and have enjoyed it, now I find it weird that I am actually happy without a job and looking forward to my adventures!
After saying goodbye to friends and colleagues in London, I traveled back to Hungary to spend time with my family.
When my family took me to airport to board the plane to Kathmandu I had a feeling that I was going back to London, not Kathmandu. It never happened that I haven’t seen my family over 4 months. I am struggling to imagine how it will feel when I wont see them for so long.
How I feel on the airplane right now?
Not sure, I have nothing in my head, it just doesn’t seem my brain can comprehend it at all at the moment. I’ve done some crazy things in my life, and this is another. I’m sure it will be awesome like every other adventure I have had, but this is the biggest so far!
I know I can finish my trip any time and return to get my old life back. So it does not feel that bad at all. Although I never heard about anybody who regretted their travels so I am sure it will be a blast for me too.
My first stop is Kathmandu where I will do some voluntary work (not part of any charity organisation). I have never really done any voluntary work before and the thought of living in Kathmandu is also something really alien to me. From my previous time in Nepal, I know that the people are amazing and I look forward to experiencing the everyday life of the Nepalese people, and to try to help them in their recovery from the recent devastating Earthquake.
Everybody should be grateful with what they have
When I went to Nepal a few years ago the people were so kind, happy, generous despite having very little or nothing at all. That changed my view of the western world for good. I realised that in western society most people moan about; not being satisfied at work, millionaires having millions, politics, weather or anything they can find.
People seem to look at what they don’t have or don’t like, they never look at what they have and be grateful for it. In Nepal what I saw that people are happy what they have, and all they have is their family and people around them. I will never forget when I was walking through a village in the mountains in Nepal (which is now destroyed by the earthquake) at dusk and I heard children laughing. I looked inside the house, there was no door just a blanket in ones place. I just saw 1 candle and the family sitting around the table and their faces were shining from happiness. What I see mostly in western families?… Family members watching telly or playing with their smartphones in the evenings. If I had the money and the means to, I would send every single western moaner to Nepal to learn how to be grateful with what they have. It is all perspective and I am so happy I received this view of life from them.
When the earthquake hit there was a no question for me about helping Nepal. I’m going there very happy that I can give something back to this country which gave me so much, and this is it.
My little help for Nepal
I must admit that I am a bit afraid of how I am going to feel when I see all of these amazing people and their country after the earthquake. They are very close to my heart and it will be very difficult for me.
I learnt in life not to choose the easy path. This occasion it would have been to pay online to some charity and make a big Facebook status update how much I support Nepal without not much meaning behind it.
Over the last few months I was tirelessly fundraising. I was writing to so many people, companies asking for support both in England and in Hungary. All of my pleas were rejected, but at least some of them wished me good luck. I did receive much support from friends and family and that absolutely balanced it out. I don’t think I will ever be able to express my gratitude for the help.
I am very happy sitting on this plane thinking that I done everything I could so far and now going there hopefully to help more.
As I said, it is still unbelievable…:)